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Name: Tyler
Country: United States
State: Illinois
Metro: Aurora
Birthday: 10/12/1988
Gender: Male
Interests: Music, lyrics, randomness, anime, sugar, fire, guys, gals, my hair,fire, shinny things, Gir, screaming, my friends, the locker room,x.x, XD, shinto buddistium, twitching, plants, water, wind, burning stuff, flame throwiers, drawing, cooking, insanity, optamistism, chicken, and TACOS!!!!!
Expertise: Let's see...Drawing, lyric writing, singing, perversion, playing instruments, cooking sorta, cheering up people, the dieing dance, and insanity.
Occupation: Student
Message: message me
Website: visit my website
Member Since:
1/14/2004
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| So Jose been breaking my back about blogging again. I will try, I truly will.
Things happening in my life, well I have a crappy boss. Her name is Shawna and she looks like a troll. And to sum up why I hate her is that instead of telling me what to do, she yells it at me. Always. Even if I have done nothing wrong. It drives me insane because I do not do well when people at yelling at me. My other bosses just simply tell me what to do, calmly. In fact, my other bosses haven't even ever yelled at me, just Shawna. And if she isn't yelling shes complaining about this or that, like I fucking care that you can't seem to get your work done. Which by the way is the third thing I loathe about her. She is never done with her work. Example, I will face the store, vacuum the store and take out the trash and she still wont be done the paperwork for the night. Which all other managers can do in that amount of time. She also does that thing where a person yells at you though another person, like Marylin told me to keep an eye on your facing because it still needs work. Its like pleasantly telling you did something wrong and I HATE IT. To tell the truth she sucks at her job, and I kind of hope she goes away. Of course on the flip side of the coin is Barb who is the sweetest person ever and really I don't think I need to explain how good she is because she basicall cancels out Shawna's crappyness.
I also feel I should blog about the whole Niki and Aaron thing but I will first try to get the facts. Then I will discuss it.
Tyler
WOTD- Lucid
TOTD-Its amazing what you find face to face.
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| At the request of Jose I return to the land of Xanga. I am sorry to all you loyal readers(Jose), and return with a recap of my life in about a sentence. I finished freshman year, got a 4.0, got a job a Walden's, start next Monday, still am single, and miss my dog alot. And that about it. I also re did my xanga pic and now it looks presentable. And I also designed a statue for downtown Naperville. You know those butterfly frog things. I designed a butterfly birdbath, I think its called Rainbow Butterfly, it looks black with warm colored markings. Have fun finding it because I can't.
Tyler
WOTD-Lucid
TOTD-Is it werid I have a job?
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| So new song just in response to things. If you want to know more talk to me.
This is also on facebook.
Tyler
Burn
You stick to your unclean malts,
And I’ll just keep my hard liquors,
Mixed with sour shame,
And sweet sweat.
We will split this Rosé,
One glass each.
Then we are done for the day.
Throw the rest on the wood.
A quick strike,
Then we are done for good.
Because I’m just undone,
You’re still the same.
This is what we should have done.
A long time ago.
So burn, burn, burn these bridges.
And strike, strike, strike these matches.
Turn, turn, turn from those visions.
We’re never the same, We’re never the same.
(repeat)
The clock kept ticking away,
We changed but we are all still the same,
The outside was very different,
But the inside remained.
An echo pedal repeating the lines,
Each word We wrote repeating time.
One step forward,
Two steps back.
Trying to connect all the dots,
And not cut the strings.
But they saw through our beautiful lies.
Painted over the memories.
Maybe it’s a blessing in disguise,
Or a prophecy from the past.
Chorus (burn)
Arrogance is the name of the game.
We played well but this is war.
The battle deadlocked.
The words remain.
If we could just restart,
I’d still stick with the words from my heart.
You cut deep,
But wounds can heal.
It still won’t change how I feel.
This is bigger than you,
You don’t know what you’ll miss.
And I wish this could change.
But it will remain the same.
So hear these final words,
As we watch the wood burn.
I made you a promise,
But I will have to break it again.
So burn, burn, burn these bridges,
And strike, strike, strike these matches.
Turn, Turn, turn from those visions.
You’re always the same, I’m not the same.
(repeat x2)
(echoic burns fading out)
You’re always the same, I’m not the same.
You’re always the same, I’m not the same.
You’re always the same, I’m not the same.
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| It has come to my attention something that is true.
That is that I have left the phase in my life in which I can believe in an idealistic world, where AIDS is cured and peace is possible. This might be because I am a generally grounded person that understands what is bunk and what is possible. Another thought is that since I have left my adolescent period, I think, that I am less idealistic and more realistic, or at least that is what psychology has taught me. I dont know.
I am also in shock of the whole Brian for some reason is leaving Illinois, and transferring to some college in Colorado. I do not get this. He says he is sick of Illinois and wants to leave to a place where people aren't assholes. Plus he now wants to be a firefighter which to me is like what? Because he is/was an English major which to me is a good idea, because he is from what I know a good fucking writer. He also says he is going on his adventure. I really want to scream at him that this is stupid. That he is wrecking what basically is a good life, which is only bad for him because he does stupid things like go to Georgia for some girl who fucks him over in the end, which by the way I KNEW WOULD HAPPEN! I really need to speak up and tell him but its kind of hard. Plus I figured out that there is nothing there and I think he might know that I thought there was something and now is having a slight adverse reaction to it. And I have no fucking clue what to do. I just know that going to Colorado is a huge mistake on many levels.
Man that feels slightly better. Sorry that I still haven't written 2007 but it was a hard year for me. And I am not quite ready to close it up yet. But I will soon trust me.
Tyler
WOTD-Where are you now?
TOTD- Here is a song I wrote it is full of complex emotions and can actually be taken from several views:Mine, Brian, Sarieu, and problaby others that I can't think of. Its really bits of emotion sown together. Hope you all like it.
Between You and Me
These words I write I do not know,
For the things I speak,
I fear will never grow.
Strong at the start, now meek,
These words I do not speak.
Because there is something,
Between You and Me,
Something so gentle,
That if I breathe
I will gasp to quick.
Causing a slip, a leak,
That the sluices will not be dry.
It started slow,
Then suddenly went so fast.
Like fireflies,
Hard to grasp.
And through the snow,
Rain so deep,
I don’t know,
And will not speak.
Because there is something,
Between you and me,
And now you’re leaving,
Trying to forgetting everything,
Including me.
And if I breath it in,
Losing breath,
I will lose what’s left.
This is my attempt,
To lie it all out,
But it’s to quite,
When I need to shout.
But the ears are too far,
And I whisper to myself.
There is something,
Between You and me.
Something hard to ask,
And hard to tell.
That something I do not know,
More I wish not to know.
Because I know there’s nothing,
Between you and me,
Absolutely nothing,
And it’s hard to see.
The world just blurred up,
And I ran away.
And I wish there was something,
That would make you stay.
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| So today is that last day of my fight with pracitum with special ed. kids. After today things will just get easier. Its amazing to think what my life will be when its over. Why? I get my lunch break back and I used that to get so much done and socialize and that kind of stuff. That will just be nice. And my college friends will be happy to see me again, I haven't had much time to see them. It makes me sad.
Valentine's Day is Thursday, what the hell am I going to do about that? Anti-valentines sound good.
Tyler
WOTD- Car Show, of which I am not at. meh.
TOTOD-So jose's whole 4th xanga birthday, made me look back at my older posts. To tell the truth, we all had some issues and I am happy I am matured from that. Very happy because the anime girls havent. : (
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